The black star, Avril Lavigne.

Went to Avril Lavigne's The Black Star Tour Live in Malaysia 2012 on last Saturday. My friends and I had planned to buy Rock Zone's tickets at first, but we were worried that our sight would possibly be blocked by people since we, the girls, are mini-size. We ended up buying Regular Zone, with the price of RM 79.00 only after 20% early-bird discount.

So here's the day! A date with Avril Lavigne.

We were all excited and reached Stadium Merdeka at around 5pm. Bought a pirated version of glowing stick as well as we didn't know where to get the original one. The crowd was stunningly huge and the weather was stuffy after drizzle.

The concert started at 8.40pm and we were kinda far away from Avril Lavigne. We could only stare at the oh-so-big screen and envied of those who managed to get close to her, Avril was like just in front of them, within meters, frankly speaking. 

However, the concert was still enjoyable despite the distance. I loved how she rocked on the stage and played the guitar, while being spontaneous and relaxed at the same time. Especially heart the moments when we sang together, such as "When You're Gone", "Smile", "Wish You Were Here" and "I'm with You". Touching, I would say, to be able to sing long with her. One of the encores was surprising, Avril switched to be the guitarist and Jim McGorman covered the song "Pumped Up Kicks", which is originally sang by Foster the People. And finally, the concert was beautifully ended with her 1st breakthrough single, "Complicated".

The night was magically wonderful. I've heard some of my friends grumbled and regretted for missing this concert and I'm truthfully glad that I went. I have always been supportive of her since her debut album "Let Go", "Under My Skin", "The Best Damn Thing", and "Goodbye Lullaby", and am waiting for her 5th, upcoming album! I have listened to the instrumental version of some songs, and I'm very positive that it will be another great album that worth to be collected. And, her next tour! I wanna see her standing right in front me next time!

Dear Avril, you've always been you. I'm with you, and we love you too, forever and always.

Black star, black star

Forever you will be

A shining star, shining star

Be whatever you can be

A rock star, rock star

You will always be

A black star, black star, black star.......

那一瞬間，sweet apricot.

這一切就在那一瞬間發生了。

其實這樣的想法已經駐足了好一陣子，每次去髮廊修剪的時候，髮型師都會鼓勵我染髮。我甚至想要弄個梨花燙，嘗試改變自己長久以來給予別人的印象。雖然總是對「童顏」這形容詞沾沾自喜，但讓自己變得更有女人味一些，想像起來似乎還不賴。

只是我總會顧慮太多。斟酌了一番，結果就連當初好不容易被點燃的小小慾望也煙消雲散。懶惰打理，也不想因為布丁頭而陷入無限補染循環的泥沼裡。在那個當下來看，這些的確是充滿說服力，能夠讓我止步的理由，沒錯。

後來，無意間看見許多朋友都在改變，接二連三。我終究還是接受不了這樣的刺激。別人都在不斷前進，我也不想再原地踏步了。

我也想成為讓你們羨慕的那個人。

於是就在那天晚上，跟家人外出用餐的時候，我說了「等下我想去買染髮劑」。而一向來都反對我「染髮」這個念頭的媽咪不只保持沉默，過後居然還陪我選了顏色。

就是這個，莉絲花王泡泡染髮劑。杏桃啡色，是屬於橙巧克力色系的。

在等待的過程中，是既期待又怕受傷害。畢竟這是我第一次染髮，什麼都不懂，就只是按照說明書的做法而已，也擔心顏色不適合或根本就不上色之類的。我媽比我還迫不及待，一直追問什麼時候才能洗掉。

看到成果的那一瞬間，心情是愉悅且雀躍不已的。

其實這不是我原本想像的顏色。我以為會是更深的咖啡色。因為根據染髮劑附上的顏色表，深色或黑色頭髮的效果不是這麼明亮的。或許是因為我的頭髮很幼細，所以很好上色吧。

還是會懊惱該怎麼處理幾個月後出現的布丁頭。也許我會再試個棕色系的顏色，把頭髮染深一些，這樣應該就不需要擔心了吧，反正也不明顯了。

如果你問我，對這樣的轉變有什麼感想的話，之前我確實有好多話想說。但是現在我只想說一句，

去你的「顧慮太多」。